I have gone through most of my life with others telling me how disappointed in me they were. When that is what you always hear you begin to question yourself. Though you always try to block out those thoughts it always seems to make its way back in. For me I have always thought that I was a disappointment especially to my family which was a lie of the devil as well as a big disappointment to God again another lie from the devil.
I don’t care who you are or what you do, everyone is prone to be attacked by these lies. I am a pastor and yet I struggle like everyone else. I still have thoughts and even though I know God has my back they still creep in. I wrote a book called I See God In It and I tell the story of my life and the hell that I went through.
This morning hit me very hard and knew that I knew God was speaking directly to me and assuring me that He would be there and that I indeed was not a disappointment. He spoke to my heart in a way that assured me that I was more than I was giving myself credit for. After a lot of focusing on Him and paying no attention to what else was going on I felt a breakthrough in my spirit. I left church knowing that I am doing everything that God puts in my path and that I am doing it exactly the way He wants me to and after speaking to my wife she said that I don’t disappoint her. The devil is a liar and has no place in our lives.
If you are feeling that you are a disappointment then I want you to know that you are not. It is a lie from the pit of hell and I ask Jesus to help you through and to speak into your heart how much you are loved and how proud He is of you. We deserve more in our lives than to be degraded by the devil. The time is now for us to take a stand and to allow God to move in our life. Now is the time for us to speak the words of Jesus and say, “get thee behind me Satan”.
Pray with me, Father I ask you to forgive me for the thoughts I have had. I pray that you will restore my mind and replace my thoughts with nothing but you. Father I know that I stumble and fall, but I will pick myself up and dust myself off and continue to run the race you have put before me. I will not give up and I will always look to you for my help and my support. I pray these things in the Name of Jesus. Amen!
Remember God is so very proud of you and it really does not matter what the devil thinks.